Intentions

You sit so high on your throne of lies Condemning me before the truth has seen the light Sitting there with your judgemental stares Placing the blame at my feet for the choices a harlot

After all the advances (Exposing of skin) There are no second chances (Commiting to sin) Self-inebriation Is where the downfall began

I won’t stand here displayed as the devil There were no screams or cries I won’t stand here Idly by Watching my world turn to ashes 'cause you changed your mind

I blame the world for my intentions This is not who I’m supposed to be I was meant for a different calling I blame the world for my intentions I’ll fight fire with mental disease Nothing you say will get me to plea

I backed into a corner as you forced yourself on me Consent has a meaning, not just a feeling, no matter what you believe The law has jurisdiction, as do I, over my own flesh Yet you act as nothing is wrong with this I fear the smell of hate on your breath Overly abundant with your constant breathing down my neck I can’t feel it anymore My pride is a stain on the floor

You blame the world for your intentions This is not who you’re supposed to be You were meant for a different calling You blame the world for your intentions (For my intentions) You try to hide with mental disease But this time we will bring you to your knees!

All these ruined lives All forgotten cries You just sit here and boast Inside their spirit dies All these ruined lives And now we're hearing their cries How does it feel to be one of the guilty?

Oh! How could you do this to me? Please God no Just set me free! Set me free! Please just let me go! No! You’ve made your bed! Now sleep in it!

Dust

They keep claiming that nothing is wrong, “It’s all in our heads”, But when I look around all I see is death on the horizon! I go to breathe but my lungs, they burn me! Don’t tell me that this isn’t real While diseases are spreading that we cannot heal!

We’re slowly killing ourselves! So far gone! We can’t even drink the water, Is this pure or poison? What’s going on here? Sliding closer to the edge; turning a blind eye to the truth All so that you can line your pockets! I’m so sick of this! We’re pushing ourselves to the end The sad thing is we deserve it!

I fear God Has taken a part of me! I see a light at the end of my eulogy. It’s nothing more than a fatal facade I won’t forget as we turn to Dust! As we all turn to Dust. I feel that life has lost its virtue, I hope that death will rescue...

The Mother! Home of Creation! Her embrace is a dying sensation. I can’t… Believe What we have done, Over-run our planet with violence and drugs! I see the devil in the mirror staring back at me. I see men in the public spreading agony. It’s a hard pill to swallow And I cannot tolerate How man’s morality Has fallen from grace!

I once had a dream for our future But the line’s been crossed, I’ve been forced to blot it out!

We’re all at a loss here. We’ve passed the crossroads! If we don’t turn this around We’ll all be dead!!! And I hope that we all suffer! We’ll all be dead! In the ashes we will smother!

I fear God Has taken a part of me! I see a light at the end of my eulogy. It’s nothing more than a fatal facade I won’t forget as we turn to Dust! As we all turn to Dust. I feel that life has lost its virtue. I can’t blame her for what she’s been put through. We may have tried our best or not, Now we must accept the war is lost!

We may have passed the crossroads, If we don’t turn this world around We will all be dead!

Spinkick

Is there a way to let the past die without digging my own grave? I see the trench getting deeper, I’m grasping for words but they’re ever fleeting! I try to sit still but my mind is bouncing off the walls. Stress building a yolk around my neck, I crush under the pressure! I find myself staring off forgetting how to form a sentence. I look at the clock, my mind’s been in gridlock! Lost track of time! Frustrated, self-hated; I just want to be normal, Why can’t I feel normal? It’s been a battle, a constant battle to gain some sense of normalcy.

I’m in a constant struggle now, I fight to gain some sense of comfort; Some sense of normalcy. And now my mind is spinning ‘round It’s so impossible to function. I can’t stand up, it’s disorienting!

I walk into a room only to feel lost. Mental glitches leave me confused, Pacing the room trying to remember the purpose! I fight to stay calm but I’m growing tired of this battle! It’s possible this is inherited but I can’t shake the feeling that I did this to myself!

I’m in a constant struggle now, I fight to gain some sense of comfort; Some sense of normalcy. And now my mind is spinning ‘round It’s so impossible to function. I can’t stand up, it’s disorienting! Losing control over myself I feel as though I’m going under, As darkness engulfs me! My mind is spinning ever spinning I can’t Slow it down, it’s disorienting!

My head is splitting in two, What am I going to do? I’m struggling just to have coherent conversations!

Cultivating fear to communicate but I have to push through! Because isolation will only catapult me into the arms of the grave, What am I going to do?

Star Gazer

Well I am sitting here staring at the clock in a dark room. (I need them now, I see them now) Life ticking with each passing breath wasting the day away. (Lit up by a bright screen) I have a life but I need them more! Please come tell me now, show me what I am missing You’re shining so bright, you have a life worth living. Is this all we have? So full of discontentment with ourselves that we crave a vicarious release Ignoring what we have right in front of us, taking it all for granted Just to stare at those that society has put on a false pedestal Bleeding out our self-worth to make space for the next toxic tastemaker Star gazer!

Envy grows like cancer We're so infatuated with what we don't have Gazing at the stars for the answers We have to pick up ourselves and find that inner peace

Drowning in ignorance We’re pining for a warm embrace of a false reality! A false Reality! Destroying our inner peace We drink the poison of this false reality Destroying our inner peace! You can’t wake up they’ve numbed you down to no return Brace yourself, you’re up so high but no one’s prepared for the great downfall The great downfall THE GREAT DOWNFALL!!!

Fallen

I open my eyes in a panic from the sites around me. People crying, buildings burning The air is heavy, I throw back my head gasping for breath! A shocking scene playing out above, Plooms rising and thundering as heat meets air! The sky is burning bright as ashes rain down upon my face! Processing the surreal images around me, An unrelenting wave of heat engulfs everything. The thought echoing in my head “Is this where I die?!”

What is happening here? What have we done? We’ve set ourselves For self destruction! We’ve bought and sold Fraught with over consumption, And truth be told We’ve become the fallen!

Terror envelopes the world! A ubiquitous sense of doom Permeates through us all down to the core! What is this presence oh so imposing? (So imposing!) A behemoth in the shadows inching ever closer!

What is happening here? What have we done? We’ve set ourselves For self destruction! We’ve bought and sold Fraught with over consumption, And truth be told We’ve become the fallen!

Killing for self gain and a false sense of power Only leads us to the end! We’re a timebomb that’s been triggered, Brace yourselves for the boom! BOOM!

We fight amongst ourselves, The gravity of this hopeless situation Crushing me and my will to press on!

We claim we want peace but it’s at the cost of others’ suffering. Will we ever learn that this isn’t the way?

We claim we want peace, but at what cost? Because of greed we’re all condemned!

Into the Void

The darkness calls out to me A begging voice that sounds oh so sweetly Words so subtle it’s almost hypnotizing Pushing and urging me to give into the evil grabbing at me I try to shake it out of my head but the thoughts keep repeating They keep repeating!

I close my eyes, taking deep breaths, trying to focus on reality But the visions so real and vivid, I barely have control As I find myself in a state of panic Something in the air’s urging me to move Rationale fails against This call into insanity

L’appel du vide! The call is everlasting Force a taste of the cold embrace L’appel du vide! The urge is unrelenting Accept the cold embrace you’ll forever face

See these figures scattered about I’m drawn to them Desires to collide From a ledge I want to soar

Want to soar These dark twisted fantasies, I’m drawn to them I’m a threat to everyone! Oh! Self preservation thrown to the wayside With the desire to feel cold steel against my skin Creating ruby rivers till it all goes dark Am I a threat to myself and everyone?

And now I’m feeling like a madman It’s becoming harder to decipher What’s actually real or just fantasy I’m fearful of what I’m capable of Now I don’t trust myself to bear the burden To have self-control when the call comes strong

L’appel du vide! The call is everlasting Force a taste of the cold embrace L’appel du vide! The urge is unrelenting Accept the cold embrace you’ll forever face

Self destructive And out of sorts The pulse is pulling me even deeper Having no power to fight against the call

In the Dark Waiting for Dawn

There’s a thin line between love and hate. A line I helplessly stumble along in my mind at the sound of your name. True hate comes from a lover scorned. Betrayed, deceived, left longing for the return of this falsified image I have. Every waking moment I spend fighting not to harbor these thoughts! Asking the question, Do I let go or let it rage? I’ve locked my heart in a cage Trying to let these wounds heal!

We’ve fought so hard to try and make this something, we're left with nothing! I’ve killed myself to try and make you happy, but now that’s over! Now the shell I’m left with I will try and rebuild myself And take the steps to rid my mind of your dark poison! I will move on, And make a life worth living without you!

But the question still haunts me! When is enough enough? But when is enough too much? Having unconditional love, but giving until there’s nothing left? To give you a false sense of happiness I slowly kill myself? Where’s the line drawn? It’s a sick game you and I play!

But my heart screams to stay with you in darkness, But the further I get away I see the dawn of a new day! Sitting here seething my trust has been broken; From thrown fists to slit wrists you dare say I’m the one to blame? I’ve waded through your condemnations! But there’s still the question, Do I let go or let it rage? I’ve locked my heart in a cage Trying to let the wounds heal!

We’ve fought so hard to try and make this something, we're left with nothing! I’ve killed myself to try and make you happy, but now that’s over! Now the shell I’m left with I will try and rebuild myself And take the steps to rid my mind of your dark poison! I will move on, And make a life worth living without you! (Without you!)

Choices

Sitting here stuck in my own head. Choices, so many choices Circling, taunting, choking my brain. Frozen in these moments feeling like a prisoner in my own body!

Breath deeply and calm your mind You’ll see in due time We’re all faced with choices Struggling so hard and fighting to be heard But fear the power of our voices Don't be afraid of own opinion Control the life you've been given Breath deeply and calm your mind You’ll see in due time We’re all faced with choices!

Repeating in my head “Is that the correct way?” “What if I make a mistake?” At a loss on what to do. Awkward stares in my direction Waiting, they’re all just waiting The tension’s growing, it suffocates me!

My thoughts slam around in my head Fearing the possibility of offense Do I make my own decisions or hand over my will to the masses?

Breath deeply and calm your mind You’ll see in due time We’re all faced with choices Struggling so hard and fighting to be heard But fear the power of our voices Don't be afraid of own opinion Control the life you've been given Breath deeply and calm your mind You’ll see in due time We’re all faced with choices!

Fade

Overwhelmed with the pain of loss She struggles to face the day. It’s been weeks, months, years But she can’t shake this gnawing feeling Of emptiness. Focused solely on the pain How will she be able to maintain A healthy state of mind?

Never again will I focus on the path that I came from. Striving for that brighter day, I won’t quit but I may stumble. Never again will I focus on the path that I came from. Striving on a brand new life And now I feel the pain fade away.

Every new day of his life He’s writing a new page. The more he holds to the past He’ll keep repeating the same task! Focus on who you’ve become! Just reach out and take hold!

Never again will I focus on the path that I came from. Striving for that brighter day, I won’t quit but I may stumble. Never again will I focus on the path that I came from. Striving on a brand new life And now I feel the pain fade away.

Never again will I focus on my past! I will fight for a brighter day!

Lament

Overwhelmed with the pain of loss She struggles to face the day. It’s been weeks, months, years But she can’t shake this gnawing feeling Of emptiness. Focused solely on the pain How will she be able to maintain A healthy state of mind?

Never again will I focus on the path that I came from. Striving for that brighter day, I won’t quit but I may stumble. Never again will I focus on the path that I came from. Striving on a brand new life And now I feel the pain fade away.

Every new day of his life He’s writing a new page. The more he holds to the past He’ll keep repeating the same task! Focus on who you’ve become! Just reach out and take hold!

Never again will I focus on the path that I came from. Striving for that brighter day, I won’t quit but I may stumble. Never again will I focus on the path that I came from. Striving on a brand new life And now I feel the pain fade away.

Never again will I focus on my past! I will fight for a brighter day!

Smoking Gun

What good’s saying “I’m sorry” When all you give is one step forward and two steps back? Is it even worth it?

I close my eyes, taking deep breaths, trying to focus on reality But the visions so real and vivid, I barely have control As I find myself in a state of panic Something in the air’s urging me to move Rationale fails against This call into insanity

Broken vows lead to shattered dreams

I will no longer live in your shadow No longer will your wake of destruction destroy who I’m longing to be!

But! What good is saying “I’m sorry” When all you give is one step forward and two steps back? I’m left in limbo, a catch 22 Feeling like I can’t live without you but to stay is the death of me The question remains Would we survive? It resonates sending shockwaves through my brain Would we survive? But my care to know is fading like crushed dreams Listen! You’re the loaded gun and I’m the trigger! You’re the loaded gun and I’m the trigger! We’re blowing holes into the body of our relationship Bleeding it out over the floor

Broken vows lead to shattered dreams

I will no longer live in your shadow No longer will your wake of destruction destroy who I'm longing to be!

You fired the final shot Straight to my heart I’m lying on the ground While you stand above With your smoking gun! WITH YOUR SMOKING GUN!!!