(N)egative Reality

Thoughts become manifest A terror in my eyes but also my closest alley We speak in ways that no one understands They're my own world that no one else can see Thoughts runaway with me, Truth's so hard to see I just want to be free From the chaos in my head Tell me is this real or my reality?

There's something I have to do But I really don't want But according to the man So slinder with out stretched hands He beckons me "Do this if you want to be free!" Reluctantly I agree I need to protect my family Lure her over here Dear God this is really happening With hidden blade I'm feeling despair "Don't be afraid, I'm so sorry!" Oh! There's so much blood But there is no screams only the sound of metal and flesh Please believe me!

It seems so real This world that I see How can this be? What's happened to me? This reality What's this world that I see if not reality? What's happened to me? And they scream take this pill, we'll help you heal But now I can't feel

How do I know you're real? I can't tell the difference in the feel Help me! My mind is dragging me under! Help me! I can't tell what's real! Help me! I can't tell what's real anymore! Help me! I can't tell what's real!

Edg(E) of Hate

How dare you deceive me, manipulate my love for you Building a wall around my heart and blinders over my eyes Then stand back and watch as I stumble about destroying everything around me I loved you Trusted you Cherished you and adored you But you say I'm nothing That I'm no good, that I am worthless! I can't believe after everything I've done for you you could do this me After everything from screams and fights to heartbreak and lonely nights I tried my best to stick by you and be the man you said I wasn't I worked myself sick to try and meet your expectations But it was never good enough for you It would never be good enough!

Eyes open to another day Of this nightmare shrouded in pain I'm no longer caught up in this dirty game Anger and love are not the same!

Now you seem more like a stranger My hurt turns over to anger Now I can finally say It's not my fault There's no more love between you and I I'm screaming inside With tears in my eyes I can no longer hide The damage you've left inside

Eyes open to another day Of this nightmare shrouded in pain I'm no longer caught up in this dirty game Anger and love are not the same And you say that this is love? I'm finally rid of you and I'm not ashamed!

How dare you play with my mind You try to tear me down Destroy this house that we built You strike the one you say you love? And give yourself to someone else? You threw it all away! And spit in my face How could you do this?! Pray that one day I will forgive you But until that day, oh How dare!