Intentions

You sit so high on your throne of lies Condemning me before the truth has seen the light Sitting there with your judgemental stares Placing the blame at my feet for the choices a harlot

After all the advances (Exposing of skin) There are no second chances (Commiting to sin) Self-inebriation Is where the downfall began

I won’t stand here displayed as the devil There were no screams or cries I won’t stand here Idly by Watching my world turn to ashes 'cause you changed your mind

I blame the world for my intentions This is not who I’m supposed to be I was meant for a different calling I blame the world for my intentions I’ll fight fire with mental disease Nothing you say will get me to plea

I backed into a corner as you forced yourself on me Consent has a meaning, not just a feeling, no matter what you believe The law has jurisdiction, as do I, over my own flesh Yet you act as nothing is wrong with this I fear the smell of hate on your breath Overly abundant with your constant breathing down my neck I can’t feel it anymore My pride is a stain on the floor

You blame the world for your intentions This is not who you’re supposed to be You were meant for a different calling You blame the world for your intentions (For my intentions) You try to hide with mental disease But this time we will bring you to your knees!

All these ruined lives All forgotten cries You just sit here and boast Inside their spirit dies All these ruined lives And now we're hearing their cries How does it feel to be one of the guilty?

Oh! How could you do this to me? Please God no Just set me free! Set me free! Please just let me go! No! You’ve made your bed! Now sleep in it!

Star Gazer

Well I am sitting here staring at the clock in a dark room. (I need them now, I see them now) Life ticking with each passing breath wasting the day away. (Lit up by a bright screen) I have a life but I need them more! Please come tell me now, show me what I am missing You’re shining so bright, you have a life worth living. Is this all we have? So full of discontentment with ourselves that we crave a vicarious release Ignoring what we have right in front of us, taking it all for granted Just to stare at those that society has put on a false pedestal Bleeding out our self-worth to make space for the next toxic tastemaker Star gazer!

Envy grows like cancer We're so infatuated with what we don't have Gazing at the stars for the answers We have to pick up ourselves and find that inner peace

Drowning in ignorance We’re pining for a warm embrace of a false reality! A false Reality! Destroying our inner peace We drink the poison of this false reality Destroying our inner peace! You can’t wake up they’ve numbed you down to no return Brace yourself, you’re up so high but no one’s prepared for the great downfall The great downfall THE GREAT DOWNFALL!!!

Into the Void

The darkness calls out to me A begging voice that sounds oh so sweetly Words so subtle it’s almost hypnotizing Pushing and urging me to give into the evil grabbing at me I try to shake it out of my head but the thoughts keep repeating They keep repeating!

I close my eyes, taking deep breaths, trying to focus on reality But the visions so real and vivid, I barely have control As I find myself in a state of panic Something in the air’s urging me to move Rationale fails against This call into insanity

L’appel du vide! The call is everlasting Force a taste of the cold embrace L’appel du vide! The urge is unrelenting Accept the cold embrace you’ll forever face

See these figures scattered about I’m drawn to them Desires to collide From a ledge I want to soar

Want to soar These dark twisted fantasies, I’m drawn to them I’m a threat to everyone! Oh! Self preservation thrown to the wayside With the desire to feel cold steel against my skin Creating ruby rivers till it all goes dark Am I a threat to myself and everyone?

And now I’m feeling like a madman It’s becoming harder to decipher What’s actually real or just fantasy I’m fearful of what I’m capable of Now I don’t trust myself to bear the burden To have self-control when the call comes strong

L’appel du vide! The call is everlasting Force a taste of the cold embrace L’appel du vide! The urge is unrelenting Accept the cold embrace you’ll forever face

Self destructive And out of sorts The pulse is pulling me even deeper Having no power to fight against the call

Choices

Sitting here stuck in my own head. Choices, so many choices Circling, taunting, choking my brain. Frozen in these moments feeling like a prisoner in my own body!

Breath deeply and calm your mind You’ll see in due time We’re all faced with choices Struggling so hard and fighting to be heard But fear the power of our voices Don't be afraid of own opinion Control the life you've been given Breath deeply and calm your mind You’ll see in due time We’re all faced with choices!

Repeating in my head “Is that the correct way?” “What if I make a mistake?” At a loss on what to do. Awkward stares in my direction Waiting, they’re all just waiting The tension’s growing, it suffocates me!

My thoughts slam around in my head Fearing the possibility of offense Do I make my own decisions or hand over my will to the masses?

Breath deeply and calm your mind You’ll see in due time We’re all faced with choices Struggling so hard and fighting to be heard But fear the power of our voices Don't be afraid of own opinion Control the life you've been given Breath deeply and calm your mind You’ll see in due time We’re all faced with choices!

Smoking Gun

What good’s saying “I’m sorry” When all you give is one step forward and two steps back? Is it even worth it?

I close my eyes, taking deep breaths, trying to focus on reality But the visions so real and vivid, I barely have control As I find myself in a state of panic Something in the air’s urging me to move Rationale fails against This call into insanity

Broken vows lead to shattered dreams

I will no longer live in your shadow No longer will your wake of destruction destroy who I’m longing to be!

But! What good is saying “I’m sorry” When all you give is one step forward and two steps back? I’m left in limbo, a catch 22 Feeling like I can’t live without you but to stay is the death of me The question remains Would we survive? It resonates sending shockwaves through my brain Would we survive? But my care to know is fading like crushed dreams Listen! You’re the loaded gun and I’m the trigger! You’re the loaded gun and I’m the trigger! We’re blowing holes into the body of our relationship Bleeding it out over the floor

Broken vows lead to shattered dreams

I will no longer live in your shadow No longer will your wake of destruction destroy who I'm longing to be!

You fired the final shot Straight to my heart I’m lying on the ground While you stand above With your smoking gun! WITH YOUR SMOKING GUN!!!